Letters To My Family: For You Mom.

Mami, 
I will never forget your face when I had to let you know that my marriage was over.  Even worse was the fact that in the midst of my pain and anger I shut my doors to you, I didn't want your help, I didn't want your comfort.  I want you to know it was not you, it was my pain, I only wanted to lick my wounds alone, get better on my own.  But I realized that I was not going to do it without you.

You raised me up like that, full of pride, independent, a warrior.  I never got to thank you for that, and that's why I am writing this post, just for you!  I would've never got up if it wasn't for your teachings, for your example, for your faith.  Even when I didn't want your help you kept praying for me.

First than anything I want to give you thanks for the gift of God, without the faith you gave me I could never lift up my head and keep walking, knowing that there is a God holding my hand and having my back.  Because in my darkest moments I always knew He was there with me, and you showed me that.  You showed me that even when we don't see it or feel it, He is always there with there by our side.

I want to thank you for all the times you showed me that standing up and fighting was the way to go ever since I was a little girl.  That gave me the strength to get up every day regardless of what was waiting for me.  You showed me it was okay to lose, as long as, we learn from it.  As long as, it made us better humans.

Thank you mami for showing me how to laugh at myself, even in the worst moments.  For you a good laugh with the one you love was always the best medicine, the best motivation to keep fighting every day. 


You have shown me how to be a mom, from day one.  You've taught me what unconditional love looks like.  I can only hope to become half of the mother you are some day.

Mom only you are the one that pushed me to write, to share it with the world.  I know I can be very stubborn, but you never backed down, you kept pushing and here I am!  Thank you for never giving up on me.
I love you with all my heart even when I look at you with my pouty face!

P.S.  Since this post is for my mom, it has to be in Spanish too!

Mami, 

Nunca podré olvidar tu cara cuando tuve que decirte que mi matrimonio habia terminado.  Y peor que nada, cuando te hice a un lado en el momento que tu sabias que más te necesitaba.  No quise tu ayuda, en medio de mi rabia y mi tristeza solo queria rumiar en mi dolor y que todos me dejaran sola; sanar mis heridas y levantarme sola.  Pero me di cuenta que no iba a poder hacerlo.  

Me criaste orgullosa, guerrera e independiente.  Nunca te lo habia agradecido y creo que por eso estoy escrbiendo esto, solo para ti!  Nunca hubiese podido levantarme sino por tus enseñanzas, por tu ejemplo, por tu fe.  Incluso cuando rechaze tu ayuda seguias rezando por mi incansablemente.



De todas las cosas que te quiero agradecer, la primera es el precioso regalo de Dios.  Sin la Fe que me diste nunca hubiese podido levantar mi frente y seguir adelante, sabiendo que hay un Dios que me sostiene.  Incluso en mis momentos mas oscuros supe que Él estaba a mi lado;  y lo sabia porque tu me lo enseñaste.  Tu me mostraste que aunque no lo entendiera, lo viera o lo sintiera, Él siempre estaba actuando en mi vida.


Quiero agradecerte por todas las veces que me mostraste que levantarse y pelear es la manera de seguir adelante.  Eso me dio la fuerza para enfrentar cada dia con fortaleza sin importar lo que esperaba por mi. Tu me mostraste que estaba bien perder, siempre y cuando aprendieramos de nuestros errores y que nos hicieran mejores seres humanos.

Gracias mami por enseñarme a reirme de mi misma, incluso en mis peores momentos.  Para ti un buen momento de alegria compartido con los que mas te quieren es el mejor remedio, la mejor motivación para seguir luchando.

Tu me has mostrado como ser madre desde el primer dia que tuve a mis hijas en mis brazos.  Me mostraste lo que es el amor incondicional.  Solo espero llegar a ser tan buena madre como tu!


Mami solo tu me empujaste a escribir, me hiciste entender que los talentos son para compartir, y aunque puedo ser muy terca no dejaste de insistir y aqui estoy!  Gracias por nunca rendirte!


Mami te amo con todo mi corazón, incluso cuando te pongo mala cara.



Thru my divorce I discovered I am a teacher, a writer and a loving mother.  I want my story to inspire you and fill you up with hope so you too can get to the other side of the tunnel.


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